Last night, Josh & I had a good talk. We dreamed together. We talked excitedly about where we want to be in six months, in a year and a half, in five years, ten years. We talked about possibilities and hopes and options and feasibilities. Sometimes, we feel we want to pick up everything, head to the West Coast, and start a California bed and breakfast (Yes, this actually went through our heads last week- but that's what brainstorming is all about, right? Crazy ideas?). Other times, we want to just settle down in a house we can stay in forever- big enough to hold our family as it grows (in the future, years from now... don't get your hopes up), enough outside space to contain our hobbies and dreams for our future life, and in a setting that we can be content with as long as we can imagine.
One thing that prompted this fanciful discussion was the discovery that a house we really liked but was just a little out of our price range just dropped $10,000 to be a feasible choice. With a workshop for Josh to pursue hobbies like woodworking someday, a 3-acre lot with a chicken coop and "milk house" for me to fulfill my dream of living on a "farm", it's as if the house (at least from what we know about it) is there just for us. The 4-bedroom house with HUGE rooms would hold us for as long as we can imagine. The location is close to a small town, but has quick access to a major road I'd use to get to work. And it is in the country. My heart is being pulled more and more to the country. The pull started at the rural college the summer after sophomore year, and has increasingly gotten stronger, to where I cannot even picture being comfortable in a suburban neighborhood. I want the space and the greenery and the quiet and the beauty (yes! being surrounded by cornfields can be beautiful!) I want the slower pace of life the country offers. My heart leaps at the thought, and, here, I grow restless.
Perhaps this is all just dreaming, and my starry-eyed visions are impractical and impossible. Perhaps I should resign to the typical suburban life. But I can dream, can't I?