My Mother's Day letter, belated

I'm wrote this on May 9th, knowing it wouldn't be shared for a little while, but it's something I wanted to get down, and remember. My first Mother's Day.

Hey Baby,

Thanks to you, today's my first Mother's Day. I don't quite feel like a mother yet- I haven't held you in my arms or changed your diaper or even heard your cry. But you're in there, reminding me with bits of exhaustion and feeling-not-so-great every now and then. A year from today, I'll be holding you in my arms, and you'll be tiny and sweet and I'll feel much more like a mother. Our life will be totally different.

This time around, though, I'm a secret Mom. No one- not even your grandmas or grandpas or your aunts and uncles- knows I'm a Mom thanks to you yet. The secret's fun- but it's going to be even more fun telling them. Speaking of Mother's Day... you've got some great 'mothers' in your life. Even before they know you exist, I know you're loved by your grandmas and aunts. They'll think you're the greatest!

I should probably mention your Daddy, too. He made me cry this morning when he surprised me with a sweet, sweet card and chocolate. (Remember, Mommy likes chocolate) You're a lucky kid, with a Dad like him. He's so excited to meet you- you're becoming more and more Real to us every day.

We're going to see the midwife tomorrow for the first time. Talking to her about how you're going to grow for the next seven or eight months and how we're going to greet you in the world, will make this being-a-mom thing seem even more like a reality.

You're much loved and anticipated this Mother's Day, and we can't wait to love ON you next Mother's Day!

-Mama